We were always together. Never apart. People always said we were one person. She was concerned about my well being every moment of the 30 years we were together. She did everything from our finances to handling all of the electronic gadgets. I can barely use the flip phone. I didn't realize how much she did until she is not. I took her for granted and thought she would always be there. Miss her smile, her love, and her oboe playing, so much. I 'll never take life for granted again. Time will help, but right now I feel lost. Thankfully I have my sister and son to help. Thanks for your concern. Tell your love ones you love them every day.